He even began to lose his shape, and he scarcely looked like a rabbit any more, except to the Boy. He loved him so hard that he loved all his whiskers off, and the pink lining to his ears turned grey, and his brown spots faded. "Rabbit grew very old and shabby, but the Boy loved him just as much. just my thought for the day, love you guys, bye bye. I think alot of other cars are jealous of the treatment that my car gets, I'm going to cry if she ever leaves, becuase I know the new owner wont take care of her as well as I do. My favorite story was the Velveteen Rabbit when I was little (SUCH a good book), and I know my car is no soft stuffed animal, but in my heart, shes my Silver Amadis, and one day shes going to be a real car. And then it hit me that the idea that she is "only a car," and indeed has no feelings and isnt real, was an idea that hurt to think about, and something that for now on I refuse.
I LOVE MY PEEPE GAY PRIDE SHIRT FREE
Sometimes I feel like I owe it to her to go off roading, as if out out in the grass, off the asphalt, is where he heart longs to be, kinda like letting your dog run free at the park. I talk to her, I appologize to her when I park her under a tree and birds poop on her, I commend her when we go off-roading together. So I'm washing Amadis (thats my car), and it hits me how real I have created her in my mind.
I LOVE MY PEEPE GAY PRIDE SHIRT PLUS
Went to galveston a week and 1/2 ago, and I was freaking out that the salt would eat my paint off from the ocean, plus ALL my clothes were dirty. So i went home tonight to do laundry and wash my car. And gee golly, if I have to be alone over the summer, I'm taking advantage of the sun that makes it summer, and hopefully get a tan. So maybe I can tone up and loose some weight. And since alot of people are out of town, I wont be going out to eat as much. I'm hoping this will get me into a little bit of shape. I start summer school soon, I'm taking a kickboxing class for 3 weeks, m-f, 8-9. I'm more the type of person who durin hte moment thinks, I don't want this to end, and I focus too much on whats going to happen raher than what is happening, then its over, and I'm left with memories of trying to shreish memories, if that makes sense. And theres a fine, FINE, line to walk between appreciating and cherishing your time, and spending too much effort in doing so that you complely miss the moment, b/c your worried about missing the moment. None of it was on purpose, it just happens. I've neglected relationships, and poured into others. I've grown so much closer to people this year, and so far away from others. Isnt it weird how things can change so drastically in a year, in a semester, shoot, even in a week, and you dont even realize whats happening untill its over. And i didnt think I would have a hard time letting my freshmen go, I took way more ownership over them than I should have, and now I'm reaping the consquences of feeling jealous. But so many things that God showered down on us commanding. I know I didnt make the most of it, so many things I would have changed. Gone with time, and maturity, and, and I don't know but its gone. Did it even really happen, it was like a breath in the wind, here for a moment, passing over our lips, like the prayers we said for our Freshmen, gone another, gone with growth, and walks, and differnt paths. Its such a surreal feeling, to be finished with something so highly anticpated. The memory of me driving home from work, beaming an almost uncomfortably wide smile, in complete disbelief that what was going to happen in the fall really would, that memory, that memory will be burned into my mind untill I grow very very old. Upstream? friends? school? I remember at this time of year, I was such a baby in faith, I had just found out I was going to be a leader. That while I'm here people enjoy my presence, but somone other than myself, recognizes that I'm meant for somewhere else. Is it weird that part of me wants to be that bird that flies away.
Yeah I know that quote doesnt have much relevance, but I was reminded of it when I was thinking about my lonliness.
Still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice. "I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. I'm lonely already, and it hasnt even begun yet. I'm staying intown to take summer school, and everyone else seems to have left. I love the warmth, I love the tan, I love being able to go to the beach, but will all things considered, I HATE SUMMER. Have you ever noticed how much shorter your buddy list becomes during summer, even more so over christmas break.